What am I deserve,

I always gratefull 4 all God gave to me, breathe, life, love and my lovely family...I'd love so...
but now...
I dont know what I must doing
everything so tired to me
I dont feel the same
Even anybody support me
I feel alone now
Yea...
That what I feel
Everyone despise me,
I remember I've tried so hard that I become now
But It's so far away now
I will run and run away
Oh...God
When It's Comes,,